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I can't do that...

Fear, doubt and disbelief. Got to let it all go.

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I put my arse in a thong for research purposes

Have we lost the freedom we once had to be silly, to be outgoing, to be ourselves in public, or is my anxiety stuck on yellow alert?

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Being interviewed for a national newspaper about anxiety

Recently, an article went live on The Guardian looking at people who have faced anxiety head on, so they can enjoy open water swimming. I was one of those people featured in the article. The other stories are incredible, and I can’t recommend the article enough. So how did

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Daydreaming

As a kid in primary school, I was diagnosed with daydreaming. My parents were called in to discuss the issue because I wasn’t paying attention in class. It was deemed an issue to be resolved, and I was advised not to daydream. At the same time, I was writing

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Festival anxiety

Anxiety has been getting to me of late. From issues with swimming during jellyfish season to hoping no-one is openly homophobic to me while walking around a city in a skirt, which unfortunately has happened. I’ve been having a bit of a year with my anxiety post Eurovision.

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My default is AHHHHHHHH. Can I change that?

Standing on the beach seeing the tide washing jellyfish ashore, two men approach and excitedly ask if I’ve seen any jellies. I say yes and point at the large lion’s mane that has just washed up away from a smaller one. The beach is peppered with red blobs

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Swimming anxiety

Previously on this newsletter… When I can, I enjoy swimming in our lake. It’s safe from stingy jellies, and you won’t get swept out to sea. It’s usual a calm space to swim and float at the start of the day, along with chatting with friends and

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Should I be angry at how school failed me?

I was interviewed this week for an article on swimming and anxiety. If and when the piece comes out, I’ll talk more about it here. For now, an interesting question stuck with me. “Do you see your growth as a massive screw you to those who picked you last

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Autism, anxiety and wild swimming

For the past few weeks, I’ve been struggling to enjoy swimming in my local lake. There are people who will tell you all about how swimming saved them or how wild swimming is their safe space. As an autistic person, it’s complicated. I enjoy swimming. There are times

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Apple Vision Pro from an autistic ADHD perspective

Apple’s annual World Wide Developer’s Conference (WWDC or Dub Dub to the cool kids who pretend they’re not cool) took place this week. It was a big one. Was it as big as the iPhone launch? I don’t think so, not for me anyway. The iPhone

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Pride Month

Happy Pride Month. Be brave. Be bold. Buy from indies not corps. No big thought this week. Sorry. My mental energy went into attending a big gaming expo which led to thoughts on autistic overload. Look for that next week. I did want to do something for the start of

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An evening of life drawing and focus

The other day I went to a life drawing session at a local event space. It wasn’t a class, just a session where a model would throw some shapes and people would draw them. I’ve never done anything like this before for one simple reason. I can’t