Happy Queermas?

Let’s put a pin in Christmas for now. I’m half way through and I’m at the stage all I want for Christmas is not be disabled, able to just do stuff and not suffer from depression. My brain does not make it easy to do anything.

I’m trying to support others and make their Christmas good but I’m completely overwhelmed. Did the drive down in bad weather take all my spoon energy for the week? Did the complexity of a Christmas family meal use up my spoons? Something did and I’ve been unable to function this holiday season. How am I supposed to push all that aside and be there for others when I’m not really here?

I wish Christmas was like it is on TV.